“I need to talk to her, I love her and miss her, please give this message to her”. This is what my Maternal Influence – as I call her – texts my husband. Continue reading “Write her a letter, he said.”
Tag: energy
The Unlikely Christmas Card
Here we are, Christmas quickly approaching. So of course I have no plans to spend time with my family on Christmas Eve. Flirting with attending vs. not attending family gatherings for 15 years, Continue reading “The Unlikely Christmas Card”
Welcome, My 200th Follower
Welcome!!! Well, actually, just practicing cause I am 3 away from that honor. But I can feel it in my bones, IT’S HAPPENING. Did I tell you that I honor my milestone followers with a special gift? Beyond excited for this opportunity… my 100th follower declined receiving anything from me so instead, I celebrated my son’s girlfriend’s influence on my getting started on this adventure. She helped me to create a forum for my voice, stronger than ever as I crawl, walk, jog and finally sprint back from an insane upbringing.
I was happy to have one reader stop by – what a crazy good validation of my truth … perfect strangers responding with “yup” and “uh-huh” when I threw it all out there, sobbing privately between the lines. Somebody understood God damn it, lots of somebody’s cheering for me and some offering a glimpse into their long held hell with spontaneous comments.
A true treasure I’ve unearthed in this blogging business. Every time I am struck with an idea, a memory, a bitch😂 or celebration, I am free to let the words flow like somebody left the gate open. Without hesitation, censoring, dumbing it down or guilt – I just say it anyway. How beautifully organic. I am beyond blessed to be seen and heard in my truth. How blessed am I to have an audience to connect with… no doubt, this is sacred work.
Naming my Gratitude WordPress! 😊
As A Tree, I Heal
I believe in the magic of trees. I can be found touching, smelling and cozying up to trees. They’re all so welcoming, fragrant, protective and accepting of love from us. My ancient friends on my land, lovingly offer their sap which I respectfully process into delicious syrup. Bark, of the Shag-bark tree also creates a delectable syrup. Elderberry, Linden, Maples, Oaks, Willow… Oh, my momma Willow. How I honor thee. I would say one of the most disappointing events I witnessed this year involved my 100+ yr old Willows. Continue reading “As A Tree, I Heal”
Careful, Your Self-Talk Is Showing
I was with a woman last night who really has it out for herself. I mean, the car felt crowded and it was only the 2 of us in there. She felt heavy. If stared at her long enough I might get a clear pic of the degrading bastard who grips her aliveness. This invisible energy that slaughters her every attempt she makes… to shine. The invisible beast with tentacles, squeezing the happy, proud, self-confidence right out of her.
Continue reading “Careful, Your Self-Talk Is Showing”
Anyway
The power of your voice is amazing. Expressing what’s true for you, personally. It’s where freedom lives Continue reading “Anyway”
Growned up
Walking down the sidewalk, my rolling cart’s wheel was stopped dead by a deep crack. Yanked my bag right from my hand. The cart smashed to the ground, Continue reading “Growned up”
Catgotcher Need
I have this black Kitty – Brookers. As a child I would have loved to have a pet who loved me as much as Brookers does. Continue reading “Catgotcher Need”
Just Stop Talking
I really feel sick with what is going on in this world. Not fearful. Just disgusted. Honestly, I listen to/watch very little TV and other Media. I have no container. Continue reading “Just Stop Talking”
Reiki
Hello!
The International Center for Reiki Training defines Reiki as the following: Continue reading “Reiki”
Delicious Tragedy
This is something I wrote whilst tearing my soul away from a delicious but tragic twin soul relationship. The beauty, no words… the gut wrenching pain and anguish, almost too much to bear. He was a runner, Continue reading “Delicious Tragedy”
Here, Wait, I Believe This Dead Is Yours
Oh, by the way, have I shared my expertise regarding the long term effects as a result of a dark childhood? Unfortunately, I know all too well, the life-long repercussions – the DEAD they placed inside of me, in us. Continue reading “Here, Wait, I Believe This Dead Is Yours”
There’s A Package For You
There’s a delivery, yes, for you. A package at the front door. The mail carrier placed it gently on the stoop. It’s an interesting heart-shaped box, ornately decorated, with just one white label. Continue reading “There’s A Package For You”
The Forgiveness Trap
For 20 years, I’ve received a ton of battering regarding the Forgiveness issue. Even the most well meaning, heartful folks cut me deeper than they’ll ever know. Continue reading “The Forgiveness Trap”
Today’s Affirmation: I am healthy
Good morning body. Thank-you for being there even when I don’t like you much. For showing up even though I push you hard and ignore your pleas to rest. For showing up even when I numb and silence you with food or substance so I don’t have to hear your needs. I appreciate you being there Continue reading “Today’s Affirmation: I am healthy”
Take a Shower
SENSITIVITY. Work with it. Use it to your advantage. Allow it to devastate you. Tear you down. Build you up. Make you feel special. Connect you with others. Allow you to feel deeply. Become more aware of just how very different you are. A gift, a curse, nothing you can do with it or about it. Continue reading “Take a Shower”
A Fish Named Karen 