Today I am giving a voice to those nasty little gnat thoughts, buzzing around in my noggin. Irritating. Believable. Unbelievable. Continue reading “Nothing Wrong With You”
Category: Human Spirit
Delicious Tragedy
This is something I wrote whilst tearing my soul away from a delicious but tragic twin soul relationship. The beauty, no words… the gut wrenching pain and anguish, almost too much to bear. He was a runner, Continue reading “Delicious Tragedy”
Affirmation Friday
If just for today, just this hour, just this minute. Feel your personal power and a gentle heart that carries it all. True power is useless without a softened heart. I will notice the power and the gentle, resting peacefully in my heart home. If just for today. 
Joy
I began blogging about my journey in January 2018. I’m learning more with every entry, every encounter with my lovely readers. The joy I feel as I gain my 100th follower is palpable. I am thrilled that complete strangers would stop by and give me a chance. Amazing. Maybe what I have to say touches upon our common thread as humans – persevering anyway. Underneath it all we all just want to be seen, heard and considered. Considered worthy of love. So I will keep rolling out pieces of authentic experience when it comes to the human condition. I am honored to have you with me on this journey. 💜
I Love Blogging
Feeling deep gratitude today for this forum. I LOVE BLOGGING. Expressing my intention today, Continue reading “I Love Blogging”
Here, Wait, I Believe This Dead Is Yours
Oh, by the way, have I shared my expertise regarding the long term effects as a result of a dark childhood? Unfortunately, I know all too well, the life-long repercussions – the DEAD they placed inside of me, in us. Continue reading “Here, Wait, I Believe This Dead Is Yours”
GreetingMe
This morning the mirror calls. Check it out. The complexion of perseverance, the YOU before Life overrides. Lock eyes with your deepest presence. 20-30 seconds. Continue reading “GreetingMe”
Mary 5
When I took this picture last fall, a warm smile took over my face. It reminded me of a portal, where Fairies and light beings play – visible only through the hard work of a wild, tree drilling, feathered beast. Then, the realization of Mary 5… Continue reading “Mary 5”
Validation
I can’t tell you how I’ve longed for someone to say, YES, YOU WERE RIGHT ALL ALONG! Continue reading “Validation”
I Am Deserving
We are. Deserving of all things amazing, bright, shiny, fabulous, and joy filled.
We are. Deserving of the quite still of the night sky, Continue reading “I Am Deserving”
Canned Peaches & Custard
- Survivor’s Crown
I knew something was terribly wrong. The desire in me, to bust out to the world with what I knew, was so very strong. I had kept the secret for a long time. Knowing something bad happened, something unspeakable, I could hardly keep from bursting at the seams. Continue reading “Canned Peaches & Custard”
Today’s Affirmation: I am healthy
Good morning body. Thank-you for being there even when I don’t like you much. For showing up even though I push you hard and ignore your pleas to rest. For showing up even when I numb and silence you with food or substance so I don’t have to hear your needs. I appreciate you being there Continue reading “Today’s Affirmation: I am healthy”
Today’s Affirmation – I am overcoming
Today I am letting go of who I thought I was. Who I thought I should be. Who they told me to be. Continue reading “Today’s Affirmation – I am overcoming”
Enough
Let’s be enough. Yeah, being enough….. sounds like a great idea but, then, there’s reality. Most of us have standards, behavior, goals, expectations, etc. that have no ceiling. There is never satisfaction. Breathless. Striving. Reaching. Your own invisible hell. You never feel enough. Your mere existence was never enough. But doesn’t it sound like such a simple idea to put into action? Continue reading “Enough”
Take a Shower
SENSITIVITY. Work with it. Use it to your advantage. Allow it to devastate you. Tear you down. Build you up. Make you feel special. Connect you with others. Allow you to feel deeply. Become more aware of just how very different you are. A gift, a curse, nothing you can do with it or about it. Continue reading “Take a Shower”
Shut Up And Change
Chaos in our lives ALWAYS serves a purpose. Whether it breaks us down, provides us with opportunities we wouldn’t have ever had, puts the right people or the wrong people on our path – we grow… Anyway. This was absolutely true for me, all of it. Continue reading “Shut Up And Change”
Broken
Ahh, the intricacies of a dysfunctional family unit. So, it was essential for my family to be seen as elite and perfect. How I longed to bring that down, to expose my family. Maybe I could get pregnant, lol that would surely make her look like an ass, a total failure as a parent – in her “church” circles. Lmao. This is what a teenager fantasizes about when all she desires is revenge. How can I shatter this perfect image? haha, how can I HELP with this? Well, as time marched on I began to focus my efforts on myself. How the hell can I get out of this house – oh! college, perfect. I could probably go for free as my father had died and my mother worked only part-time and with 8 kids (5 still dependent) it would be a no-brainer. WRONG. My mother never got involved in the process – blew off filling out the appropriate financial forms and I ended up having to pay for my own college. I Continue reading “Broken”
uh-MAZE
My life always felt like an evil trick. Because of my circumstances I was driven to be fiercely independent, way too early. I didn’t want anyone’s help. To accept help was code for – I have to surrender a piece of myself. Help was dangerous, risky. I had already lost so much. No way was I giving up more of myself. NO WAY. As a teeny child I learned that humanity was not trustworthy. There was always a hidden agenda, motive, dark intent under all that appeared to be, oh yes, loving and kind, enter mind-fuck. That even the ones closest to you disregard your NO, your boundaries, your protest, your sadness, your existence…bla, bla, and bla. Now I realize that I didn’t deserve this horror that went on and on and on with a life death of its own. No child is equipped with the capacity to hold all of this evil and process what is going on. No child. Continue reading “uh-MAZE”
A Fish Named Karen 