Cleansing Rain

Oh. The rain falling. Reminds me of all the parts of myself that are falling away.

Still.

Parts that I won’t miss. They’ve served me well but are no longer needed and are keeping me small. No longer playing small.

The part of me that needed to say everything that was on my mind; the part of me that got anxious if I didn’t.

The part of me that felt invisible when someone forgot my name.

The part of me that was angry and attacking when I saw that someone felt entitled.

The part of me that was scared to show love and vulnerability to a stranger.

The part of me that felt pressure to make decisions – immediately – because someone was waiting.

The part of me that forgot my needs and put others first.

Today letting the rain fall on my body, gently cleansing and clearing, discarding old patterns and beliefs.

Noticing the lessons I’ve learned from pressure, not feeling good enough, not worthy, the part of me that felt invisible, expecting perfection, putting others before myself, freezing, using anger to get what I want…as they flow down my body and gather in puddles.

The triggers. Still. Dirty yesterdays. Reabsorbed into the earth.

Making space inside myself for a more expansive and aware self.

What will you let go of? How have you awakened?

Renew. Refresh. Rain.