Reaching

I’ve had some very interesting, very deep, connections – I like to call them soul connections with people on my path in this lifetime (and I’m sure, multiple other lifetimes). Some people would refer to my experiences as a “soul mate” or “a twin flame” relationship…I just think that whatever they are called they are the most profound experiences of my existence. I don’t search for these connections, they present themselves to me, in the form of dreams, visions, remembering past lives, astral travel, remote viewing and other weirdly fabulous shit. LOL.

This person I refer to below was someone I knew as a child and oddly enough resurfaced in my life 15 years later. We were friends of each others’ spouses. I have to add that we never had a physical relationship but my connection to his Spirit is something that has profoundly changed the way I love myself. the connectedness of our souls is/was undeniable.

If one can withstand the severe highs and lows of such a connection – the gains in self awareness and healing of old wounds are nothing short of profound. Life changing. I will blog more about this in the future. But here is a synopsis of our last journey. I call it REACHING because that’s the feeling I felt the most.

REACHING

Endless supply of love

Admiration I afforded

Your beautiful Spirit

Aloof and unaware

Smug in your unconsciousness

Beside you

Nothing

For surrender, for the taking

Walk into my dreams

Take what you want

I am selfless

All is yours

Your empty, tragic existence 

My only desire is to fill you

Somehow I am responsible

Soul Mate

We take turns running

Pain and pleasure

Oh so much pleasure

I am alone in this

Secretly wishing you’d awaken

Oh! a heart of presence 

Validate my Effort

My loyalty

See me, see you

See something

But a beautiful tragedy

It always is

Many lives

Same story

Top speed, no parachute

A terrorizing, familiar fall

Nothing to hold onto

Except self destruction

Killing of myself

For you

I love the way it hurts

Desperately reaching

Sir

See the giving of my soul

Are you paying attention

I have no more to give

Wide open, no fence

Destruction lives here

Addicted and hungry

I feed off your fucking pain

Get off on the depth

Bring it on me, yet again

I lick it up

drink your tragedy

Quite delicious 

Excruciating

My endless supply of love

Now fuels my separation

Love for myself

Awakened now, clearing

Shielded and centered

I am present and free

Free of your predatory energy

You will

Respect my power

But not one taste

For you

Despite your amazing Spirit

I will not yield again, no

Now you may watch

Illuminating your path

In the rough seas 

Of your existence 

Sir

 

No reaching

No longing

But separation,

Finally

Away from you 

I return home

To myself

Without you